Friday, April 27, 2012

sick, sad, fat, not feeling right, fat, sad, sick….

That describes what I feel like and think and see. I am trying to adjust to the empty nest but it’s not easy, it’s hard. It’s quiet and not normal here. I’m not liking it at all yet, not even a tiny bit. I’m trying to eat right but either I’m not hungry and go without or eating just because it’s there. Exercise is something I did once this week but I don’t think because I was lazy I think because I’m sick and slightly lazy. I have a terrible cold that started in my head but now has landed in my chest. With it comes coughing so hard I pee, headaches that make my migraines easy, a fever off and on but I must work so 30 hours behind the bus wheels and 40 hours of daycare plus last night and tonight had daycare until 8:00. I want to sleep but have a girls day planned tomorrow and I sure am not going to cancel that so am hoping I can get a good night rest and wake up feeling tip top for our play date.

I have got to get back into the healthy lifestyle I do truly love but have let go. The scale is telling me I have been neglecting myself and letting things go but I can’t seem to focus or stay on plan. Heck right now what plan?

Tired of being sick, tired of crying, tired of being fat, tired of coughing, tired of so many things. But can’t seem to find the right place right now.

Need to regroup, rejuvenate, recharge. I’ll get it all back, hopefully soon.

Have a blessed weekend. I’m going to try.

12 comments:

Mom to the Fourth Power said...

I'm sorry Julie. I'm sure it will get better soon. Take care of yourself cause you are worth it! I can relate to so much of what how you are feeling. You are not fat - you have worked your tushie off and you serve your family and those darling little kids. You do so much for others. I hope you can find some time for yourself to rejuvenate and get your mojo back. I am working on that myself. ;0

Love ya... prayers your way!
~Margene

Karen Butler Ogle said...

((((((((Julie))))) I'm so sorry you are feeling sick and down. You know I've been there recently too. I know how much you miss your baby. He will be fine though and as some time goes by it will get easier. Try to take care of yourself even though you don't feel like going on. Mike would want you to get back into the swing of things and take some meds for your cold. I hope you feel better soon and can get back on your normal plan. Hugs to you. :)

Debsdailylife said...

You have to take care of yourself, or you wont be able to take care of Mike and Jim!! Do this so that when he comes back you can still hike, you can boat, so that youre still around for him!!

Debsdailylife said...

Just after I read your post, I went to this one. http://www.emptynest1.com/2012/04/you.html
Check it out,
Love you girl!!

Jordan said...

You are in my thoughts.... be well. It will get better!

InWeighOverMyHead said...

:( I'm sorry. I still have little ones but I already dread when they move out.

Nanette said...

Oh, lady! I feel ya. Getting back on track is so difficult. You'll get through this though. You're a trooper. Look at how much you've accomplished already! :)

Princess Dieter said...

The fact that the vast majority of weight losers gain it back means the ones who DO NOT gain it back are the ones who keep fighting through the hard times. Well, lots of us who were breezing before are having a harder time (especially those of us closer to goal). We have to stay in the game. Keep our minds and hearts in it, or we become the statistic: regain all of it back and sometimes MORE.

Let's keep at it, babe.

Feel better. Remember the young birds were always meant to fly away...

Hugs

E. Jane said...

So sorry that you're not feeling well and down in the dumps. I know you miss your son. I've been through the empty nest, and it can be difficult at first, but life readjusts itself, sometimes bringing new people and new experiences with it.

I always think that when we go through transitions like this, and when we're sick, it's OK to feel sad and introspective for a while, as long as we know that it's only for a short time. I think your cold is making everything seem more difficult, because your energy level is low. You will get it back, and there will be better days ahead.

Betty WSch. said...

Awe Julie, I wish I could give you a big HUG!! I'll be praying for you and hope you find something to help with the loneliness. I remember that time so well and it's just something you will have to get used to. I know it sucks!

Kim said...

I hope you feel better by now and at the very least can get a nice long nap today!!! Thank you so much for the lovely card! You made me misty! Take care& ttu torrow...

Michele said...

Getting out with your friends will lift your spirits. Life seems to have thrown you a curve ball right now. You will hit a home run soon (and get your mojo back). Stay strong, Julie.