I don’t want to do this any more. I want to be where I need to be and not diet any more. I am tired of this. I’m tired of the special groceries, the special meals, the questions of how much longer are you doing this, the …. well I don’t know what else right now. Oh how about that scale and it hating me.
I want to exercise my brains out (I am loving exercise) and eat normal thought out meals and not worry about it all. I want to say yes I’d love to go out to dinner and know that I won’t over eat. I want to eat a piece of candy if I want it and not feel like I’m depriving myself because ones not enough. I want to feel good in a t-shrit, swim suit (though I will always be lumpy but don’t need frumpy) and my jeans.
I’m in a funk and I know a lot of it is what’s going on and some things I can’t do anything about but deal with them as they happen but I’m also feeling dumpy, grumpy and just down right ugly. It is amazing how one week you can feel awesome and not even loss a pound and then next week feel so yucky.
I need someone to pump sunshine up my butt and make me smile. Something funny, something meaningful, anything?
I hope your all doing great. I hope sunshine is shining around you and that life is good. By the way, life is good here…stressful but that’s almost everywhere for everyone, it’s just me.
You can ignore me too because I know that this funk isn’t going to last and I know that I will kick this diet in the butt and lose the last of this weight I’m carrying. Just not today…tomorrow maybe.
Sleep well my friends, blessings!!!