Monday, March 25, 2013

Honesty…

I have always used that as my policy on my blog. So I have something to tell you and it is the most embarrassing, most disappointing, most discouraging news I could ever tell you. However my partner in this has been honest from day one…so I am going to be too.

I once weighed in at 179 lbs…a bit less but I won’t count the stupidity I did to get there. The 179 was a healthy weight, a good weight for me and a weight I will be weighing again this year. I don’t mind turning 51 this year is I can weigh close to that. I won’t be there yet because …. well I am right now weighing in at 201.4, two weeks ago at 206.6. I am no longer in the onederland and I am very upset with myself. 2 years ago I was 179, than Mike went to college and my world came undone and …well so did I. However I am back and I am working hard to get back to where I want to be.

Deb and I have picked Mother’s day. It’s a good day to shoot for the 180lb mark. It’s 2 lbs a week and so far I’m a bit ahead so that means on those weeks where I’ve worked hard but nothing has happened I should be okay.

Honesty is the best policy and I’m sorry I let you guys down. I have been trying to get back on the wagon, I keep trying and trying but my heart just really wasn’t in it. I really didn’t like Mike gone, now it doesn’t mean I wasn’t proud because my Lord am I, was I, it just meant I didn’t think I could do this but I did, I learned, I lived and now I’m going to live some more and get this right.

Week 3, the beginning. Today was an awesome day. I ran 2 miles in 27:11. Also 10 minutes on the elliptical. For some reason my C25K didn’t register my Week 1 Day 3, so today I did it again….Tomorrow I’ll do Week 2. I do need to do my stretching, I didn’t do today so will tomorrow too.

Take care my friends and thank you. Thank you for being there for me. For supporting me, for helping me and for putting up with my stupidness. My blog, healthy, wealthy, wise … NOT but learning. Learning….every single day!!!

Blessings!! 

9 comments:

Jo said...

Julie, it's okay. Not the end of the world. Dust yourself off and get back with the plan. You know what to do and I believe you are doing it.

Caron said...

Sometimes we take steps backward but then we just reverse and go forward again and keep on trucking. You're doing great! :)

Deanna Printy said...

Changes in life are hard.....you can do this; you are doing this! Keep praying and God will keep giving you the strangth to make it through all of lifes ups and downs.

Kim said...

Honestly Julie, u r too hard on yourself, u look beautiful at either weight and can run me into the ground at either weight...you are doing great! But I'll walk your legs off if u think it could help u FEEL better :)

Sunshine's Heart said...

Sometimes those numbers scare us into getting on the ball. I'm sorry you are disappointed in yourself. You shouldn't be. You have a lot going on and it would be a miracle if it hadn't affected you in some way. I applaud your honesty and wish you the very best in your journey from here on out. You can do this. I believe in you. Hang tough. Hugs.

gracies tough journey said...

You could never let me down.God Bless you!

Debsdailylife said...

OH JULIE Beth or Renee or whatever your middle name is!!! Stop being so hard on yourself!!!! We are our worst critic!!!! You did not let anyone down!!! We gained back 20 lbs, and we are working to get them back off!!!!

Angela Pea said...

What do you MEAN let us down? Sweetie, it's just a number and doesn't define your beautiful self!

You're getting back on track and doing everything you can to feel healthy. It will come. I promise you it will.

LOVE YOU!

Baby Sister said...

Oh Julie, there is no need to be so hard on yourself and you haven't let us down!! We all have our down times, what's important is that we pick ourselves back up again and keep going and that we find that peace within ourselves.