Tuesday, December 27, 2011

reflection…and…

First because everyone wants to know how the dress reveal went….remember I told you Jim is not romantic, he’s not nostalgic, he’s not one for any compliments and he’s not one for really any support and even though I’d love to tell you he fell head over heals in love with me again, I’d love to tell you his tongue fell out of his mouth, I’d love to tell you he just stood there with his eyes pooping out of his head …. well it didn’t happen. His only comment was, your boobs are bigger then they were when I bought that dress for you. Nothing else. Did it hurt my feelings, no not really because after 32 years of being married to a man that knows how to say things not nice he didn’t say anything mean or unjust. He just didn’t say anything I would of love to hear. So for my next challenge I’m not doing anything to impress or ask for compliments, I’m just going to do it for me. 

Now to reflect on my 2011, it really was an awesome year. Now I didn’t lose tons of weight, only about 25 lbs total but I lost 3-4 dress sizes. I went from barely walking fast to running a 5K in 32 minutes. I went from lifting 5-10 lbs to anywhere’s from 25-110 lbs. I went from not being able to do a sit up to doing 30 semi vertical ones. I went from not a zip for push ups to 15 (not the girl kind either), planks I can do 5 at 45 seconds each. So I am happy with what my body can do and just think if I could of done that much in one year, what will this year bring?!  I do have tons to learn though, I can not keep a journal. As much as I would love to write everything down I just have the attention span of a knat and can maybe do a week or two. So for next year I want to learn to do this. Maybe I should just put a notebook out on the counter and write in that. I used myfitnesspal for a long time off and on and it is awesome but to sit down and either figure out my day foods and exercise or remember it at the end of my day just doesn’t always work. So something to really work on. I have gained self confidence that I didn’t even know I had. I left my house and applied for, trained for and tested for driving bus. I can do this and talk to people and meet people and not feel like a fat snow-woman. That’s what I use to think all the time, a snow-woman. Fat, ugly and not worth to much. Now I’m still not high on my list of worth much but I’m not at the bottom any more. I’m creeping up and feeling much better about me. I still have to give credit to Allan for a lot of that. He had faith in me long before I did. And my friends, Kim, Terri, Brenda…they are always in my corner and each in their own ways have helped me tons on my journey. My biggest fan is Mike, my son. No matter what day of the week it is he’s there to cheer me on. He’s come to all my races, he’s pushed me when I really didn’t want to go more, he’s helped me find out I can climb that wall, I can swim that river, I can run that race.

So for 2011, I did good. For 2012, I am going to do great. I am going to keep up what I’ve been doing with a bit more follow though, a bit more push to get to where I really want to be.

2012 is going to be a huge year. A year to have an empty nest, a year to turn 50, a year to learn to do much more on my own, a year to grow (or really shrink) and year to stretch and learn.

Thank you all for your help, for your support, for your ideas, your inspiration, for your errors for me to learn from, for my errors to maybe teach someone not to do that. Thank you for so much.

Take care my dear friends. Blessings to you all!!!

12 comments:

Karen Butler Ogle said...

Julie, I'm sorry your husband is not complimentary. Some men are threatened when their wives make changes in themselves and wonder if they are going to leave them. My guess is that Jim is insecure and that is why he doesn't compliment you. Good for you for recognizing a job well done though and for working so hard this year. You are doing great and I hope next year is even better. Hugs.

Diandra said...

Maybe he did not say much, but did his reaction to you change in any way?

Apart from that - you did a great job.

deanna said...

My husband is the same way. At times it feels he doesn't care, but he is the first person to be there when you need something, he always unclogs the toilet and can fix anything and everything. He just doesn't hand out complements.

It is hurtful sometimes, but then like you I remember who he is and know he doesn't mean anything negative by it. It is just him.

EmptyNester said...

I'm glad you're climbing up on your 'you' list because you are so very worthy! On my list, you're tops! Just think of all the people you have inspired- me included! If it wasn't for you I would not have discovered how important a challenge can be for this weight loss journey! The journaling thing? You're just so busy that you're exhausted at the end of the day. Maybe a different time of day would help? Or maybe visit Mari's website and see what tips she has- she helped me! I'm off to read more of your posts that I've missed!

Kalei's Best Friend said...

You are the only one who knows him... so why would he change after all these years? He probably did not mean anything by the 'boob' comment... If anything to me, it means your waist is smaller so, yes, your boobs would look bigger.. so in a round about way, he did compliment you... I am glad that you see that you should be the one who is pleased w/your results... after all its all that hard work and its paid off.

Maren said...

That's what some guys are like, and clearly you know your husband very well. And like you said, you are doing this for YOU. Obviously he's not blind, and I'm sure he notices in his own way.

I think you have had a crazy good year, and I know that 2012 will be so good for you, me, and our fellow blogging friends.

I am so glad I'm getting to know you through your blog, you are one amazing lady!

Jordan said...

I'm so proud of your accomplishments this year and impressed at how much you can do! Now I don't have any excuse for why I can't do boy pushups now that I know you can do them. It makes me want to try harder knowing that you've been able to make such big changes. You're inspiring me!

Baby Sister said...

You've had a lot of accomplishments, my friend. It's been a good year for you. :) And next year can just be awesome!! You're a big inspiration to a lot of people out there, myself included, I'm sure. :)

Anne H said...

50 rocks!
here's to a great year!

Debby said...

HELLO 2012!!!! We're gonna have a wonderful year!!!! Thanks for your friendship and inspiration!!!

Princess Dieter said...

Personally, I think you did GREAT in 2011, and I want you to focus on it that way. YOU DID GREAT. You lost weight, exercised, fit into a dress you didn't fit into for a long, long time. You did yourself a lot of favors in 2011.

25 pounds is a lot of fat. Don't minimize that at all. Celebrate it big time.

2012 will be a year of new progress. And you must love every bit of it...every bit. OK?

Mir,....muah!

Caron said...

Totally agree that you "did good" in 2011. Keep up the good work. :)