Because whomever is here right now isn’t Julie. Not the Julie I’ve been for many years. This one is really strange. It’s even hard to put a finger right now it. What use to be fun sorta isn’t. What use to grab my attention doesn’t grab me. Crafting…well I don’t want to. Trying to clean the house, that takes a bigger attention span then what I have. I’ve gotten up 6 times in just the past 7 sentences to do something or walk around and think of stuff I should be doing. I now some of this is about Mike but you know what, it can’t be all because I can talk to him without crying. I can be happy when he shares pictures from him room, activities and I can be the proud mama when he calls and tells me he aced his first test. I don’t know what it is but I’m thanking God that it’s spring and the sun is shining because I think at least that is keeping me from losing it all together. I’m lost, if I was to put a word on my feelings. So Julie is on vacation, this Julie is lost so I think I will be taking a break from everyone for a little bit. I am as supportive as ….. well nothing. I have nothing interesting to say or share.
So for the next little bit I’m going to just….well exist for now. This can’t and won’t last forever….I won’t let it. Kim won’t, Brenda won’t, Terri won’t….my family won’t. I just got to try and find my spot, myself.
I’ll stop by and check in on your guys though because I can’t imagine life without you all in it. From reading other blogs for the past few years I know that others have gone through tough times too and come out just fine on the other end. So fear not, I will too. I love you guys and I love that you have supported me, steered me, helped me, taught me, cared for me and I’m hoping you’ll hold on for a bit so when I come back you’ll be around to share some more with but if not, I will understand that you have to move on, you have to do what makes you happy. You have to read someone that inspires, supports, encourages, shares and more.
Take care my friends. God bless each and everyone of you.