Thursday, May 3, 2012

Julie’s on vacation or something….

Because whomever is here right now isn’t Julie. Not the Julie I’ve been for many years. This one is really strange. It’s even hard to put a finger right now it. What use to be fun sorta isn’t. What use to grab my attention doesn’t grab me. Crafting…well I don’t want to. Trying to clean the house, that takes a bigger attention span then what I have. I’ve gotten up 6 times in just the past 7 sentences to do something or walk around and think of stuff I should be doing. I now some of this is about Mike but you know what, it can’t be all because I can talk to him without crying. I can be happy when he shares pictures from him room, activities and I can be the proud mama when he calls and tells me he aced his first test. I don’t know what it is but I’m thanking God that it’s spring and the sun is shining because I think at least that is keeping me from losing it all together. I’m lost, if I was to put a word on my feelings. So Julie is on vacation, this Julie is lost so I think I will be taking a break from everyone for a little bit. I am as supportive as ….. well nothing. I have nothing interesting to say or share.

So for the next little bit I’m going to just….well exist for now. This can’t and won’t last forever….I won’t let it. Kim won’t, Brenda won’t, Terri won’t….my family won’t. I just got to try and find my spot, myself.

I’ll stop by and check in on your guys though because I can’t imagine life without you all in it. From reading other blogs for the past few years I know that others have gone through tough times too and come out just fine on the other end. So fear not, I will too. I love you guys and I love that you have supported me, steered me, helped me, taught me, cared for me and I’m hoping you’ll hold on for a bit so when I come back you’ll be around to share some more with but if not, I will understand that you have to move on, you have to do what makes you happy. You have to read someone that inspires, supports, encourages, shares and more.

Take care my friends. God bless each and everyone of you.

11 comments:

S said...

Early spring funk maybe. There's been a lot of changes lately and hitting a milestone birthday that you'd been prepping for.

Sometimes a little time is just what you need. I've gone to this article many a times. http://www.oprah.com/spirit/Strategies-for-Mental-Rest-and-Relaxation-Martha-Beck-Advice

Betty WSch. said...

I have one word for you: HORMONES!!! Please consider taking them. I know they will make you feel normal again.

Caron said...

Take care of yourself, Julie. Check back as often as you feel like it. We love hearing from you. :)

Kyra said...

I sincerely hope you feel better!

Jo said...

Julie, do what you need to do. You have been through a lot in the past few months. Change things up. Let us hear from you, and of course we will be here when you return.

Sarah G said...

((Julie))

Karen Butler Ogle said...

Julie, I'm feeling much the same as you except nothing has happened really to cause me to feel so listless and lost. It is just part of my disorder which still isn't in control. My heart and prayers are with you. Do whatever you need to to take care of yourself. I'm finding it difficult to get through the days myself. I understand the lost feeling your have. I have been feeling lost for quite a while now. I'm lost interest in everything but food. I've been here before. The weight came on. I only hope I can stop it before it gets too much worse. I am here if you need me. Text me or email me anytime. I wish I was closer so we could get together and just work out all these confusing feelings and encourage each other. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs. :)

E. Jane said...

Julie,

Take good care of yourself. Transitions are hard, but know we all care about you and and thinking about you.

Of One Heart said...

Julie, I'll hold you high up on my prayer list, I promise. I facebook messaged you after a decade almost. Know that I think your pictures on your sidebar are gorgeous. :) Stay fun. Don't be down.

xx

Shawn said...

Hang in there, and come back when you are ready!

Debsdailylife said...

Its only been 4 days, and I already miss you!! : ) Hugs and prayers!!